Third Trimester

I’m at week 30. I thought the last trimester would be a piece of cake! However, I’ve never been so paranoid and uncomfortable in my life! No one ever talks about how hard pregnancy was going to be. All I’ve heard is how fun and special this time was going to be. Before getting pregnant, I’ve seen people post how beautiful their belly is, the look of happiness on their faces. In my mind, I was excited to have all those things! Don’t get me wrong, I feel very blessed to finally be pregnant, I just wished I was more prepared.

Since being pregnant during Covid, I feel like I’m not getting the information I need. I’ve learned a lot of things from friends who are moms and a lot online. My appointments are decreased compared to friends who were pregnant before Covid. I’ve been told they had weekly appointments during their 3rd trimester. For me, I’m only going to have 2 appointments which sucks! The front staff are working from home which they have dropped the ball with my insurance information. They assumed I had Aetna open access ppo, which they are in network with, however they haven’t completed my insurance verification because they say “the Aetna website was down” when I first started. I’ve been seeing this doctor for 5 months, then I found out my insurance did not pay for anything. So right now, I’m beyond stressed. I don’t have a doctor right now until my continuity of care from my insurance will be approved.

I also thought being in the third trimester would be the easiest since I’m almost at the finish line! It’s actually the hardest for me. Some days baby girl is super active and other days she puts me in full panic mode because it would be hours from since I’ve felt her last.

Don’t get me started on the comfort. I’m 4’10 and my belly is huge, which means constant backache. I don’t think my body is proportion for this. I use about 10 pillows every night, which finally made the pain go away! I get winded right away from walking because I feel so fat. Also, people say when you’re pregnant, you’ll start glowing? Where? All I see is sweat! The boobs! Ha! You’ll get bigger boobs when you’re pregnant and it’s going to look fake! Look doll! Where did you get your research because my boobs are still sagging all the way down to my belly. It looks far from fake!

I must say however, I love being pregnant. I know I just ranted about how much pain and suffering I’m in, but I’m human. We can’t feel perfectly fine all the time. I love how my baby girl kicks and moves in my belly. I didn’t think my husband and I could get any closer, but we did. Talking about the nursery, the random kisses and touches on my belly. The way I catch him look at me. It feels so amazing! In about 2 months, our lives will change to what we always wished for. I always thought I was going to be a young mom, but that wasn’t the plan for me. At almost 40, I can say I achieved and did a lot of things. Now it’s my time to be a mom.

To my baby girl,

Your papa, peanut, and I are so excited for your arrival. It’s going to be crazy when you enter this world, but just know we will always keep you safe and protect you.

I honestly can not wait to meet you. We have 11 weeks to go! I bet those weeks will fly by and I will get to hold and kiss you. But like your papa said on his Instagram, “No need to rush. We will be here when you’re ready and will be here every step of you life.”

Also, just to let you know, I’m new at this mom thing. I might not have all the answers, but I will do everything I can to be a great role model. I’m a great listener. I’m very understanding. I hope when you get older, you know you can always come and talk to me about anything and everything.

Your Papa and I are not the richest people, but we will do what we can to give you the world.

Love,

Mom