Life before 2016

I can say that life before 2016 was a really fun year. 2010 to 2016 was a year that I’m very proud of. I got out of a toxic relationship in 2010 and found my now husband the same year. During those 6 years, I was in the best shape of my life. I found my love for running through my struggles with obesity. Before 2010, I was a big girl. (I’m back to being a big girl, but let’s save that for another blog) I started running in 2010 just to bring my weight down, but I realized I was really good at it. I went from 170lbs to 115lbs. I never felt better. I ran 5 minute miles and big corporate people from big athletic companies found out about me. I had a believeyoucan Instagram that first had 200 followers and after my second Nike marathon it reached to 10k followers. (It got hacked, but I’m glad I have a screenshot for memories.) I turned heads. People thought I had potential to even try out for the Olympics. So that’s what I did. I trained so hard in hopes of making it to the Olympic trials. My husband was my biggest fan. He supported me through my whole running journey physically, emotionally, and financially. Running was such an expensive sport. 2016 summer Olympics was in Rio de Janiero. I didn’t make it to the Olympic trials. I wasn’t even considered. I was good, but there was better. I was upset, but I thought that nothing was going to stop me from touching the stars. The same year, I got pregnant with twins. That’s when my life changed. After the failed pregnancy, I haven’t ran since. I believe that seeing heartbeats on the ultrasound put an instant bond in my heart. I didn’t know them, but I knew I already loved them. I’m so lucky to have an understanding husband. A husband who can read me. He gives me space without me asking and he knows how to warm my heart. Without him, I would be a wreck! He gave me as long as I needed to try again. I think the two years after 2016, I was unconsciously letting him know I was not ready. I told him we couldn’t try again because I got a new job. I told him it’s not a good time because I just got a promotion. Blah blah blah… For some reason, I feel like 2019 is our year. I’m finally ready…