Infertility

Infertility is what I’m struggling with. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 4 years, but we haven’t had our little blessing just yet. We even had some exciting news, which turned into a broken heart. I had a miscarriage three times and I had one ectopic pregnancy. When I had my ectopic pregnancy, the doctor gave us two options: 1: Surgery to take out the embryo. 2. Terminate the embryo by taking two shots of methotrexate, which will kill the cell tissues. We decided on number 2. After the shots, my husband took me to Palm Springs to celebrate our friends wedding and also to get our mind off things. After our short vacay, I had abdominal pain which was very painful. I drove myself to the ER. They did an ultrasound, which showed the methotrexate did not work for me. I saw two beating hearts. Twins. Chris and I were going to have twins. There was nothing the doctors could have done to save them. One beating heart was in my right Fallopian tube and the other beating heart was stuck on my right ovary. Devastating! Knowing life was forming inside my body and termination was the only option destroyed me. I was rushed to the emergency room that night and my doctor performed surgery to take them out. The hardest part was moving on after this. There was nothing that I knew that could heal me after this.

Well so I thought..