Love Sees No Color
It’s surreal to think that when I started this blog, I thought I would just release some of my emotional distress and my anger that has built up from over the years, but I got more than what I thought would have ever expected.
Going through my infertility that has been with me for more than four years, I felt alone. I felt like I’ve done something in my past that I wouldn’t be blessed to be a mom. I felt like I was unworthy. I felt like a failure. I felt like a failure to my husband because he deserves to hear someone call him Dad. He deserves someone to hug him and love him. He deserves someone that will cry all hours of the night so he can hold them and comfort them. To be their protector. My husband is street and book smart. I don’t know many people who are both. He would make a wonderful dad. I know he would bring up an amazing child by using his morals and values. I felt like a failure to my parents. They haven’t been able to tell their friends all the funny things that their grandchild has done. They haven’t been able to brag about how smart, how funny, how beautiful, how loving, how much their grandchild hugs and kisses them. It kills me to know that everyone they know are grandparents except for them. I know how much they want this. I felt like a failure to myself. I felt like jealousy, anger, and feeling worthless took over my life. I haven’t scrolled through my personal Instagram in months because the thought of seeing another pregnancy announcement killed me. Please don’t get me wrong, I’m honestly happy for their new addition, but it reminds me that I may never be able to post one myself.
When I started this blog, I realized I was not alone. From what I researched 1 out of 8 struggles with infertility. I get messages from people who don’t struggle with infertility, but they tell me that they are praying for me and not to lose hope. I’m starting to get a whole bunch of DM’s that I’m having trouble keeping up and responding to them. DM’s from people who are going through the same thing, people who are telling me not to give up and to stay hopeful.
I really appreciate you all. My platform that I use to create my blog is Squarespace. They have this amazing way to show you who has visited my blog. I get over 1000+ views daily. Even though I do not know who visits my blogs, it does show me the state and country you guys are from.
Shout out to all of you who took the time out to read about me. I’m probably someone you don’t know, but since you’re on this blog, we probably have something in common. From one infertility person to another, please don’t let any issues that you have define who you are. You have so much more than what you may think, know how much you’re worth. Infertility is hope, just remember we should find the joy in our journey.
Thank you…
USA - California, Washington, Pennsylvania, Georgia, New York, Florida, Oregon, New Jersey, Illinois, Texas, Hawaii, Colorado, Ohio, Missouri, Indiana, Maryland, Massachusetts, Nevada, Michigan, Wisconsin, Kentucky, Virginia, Kansas, Idaho, District of Columbia, Arizona, and Utah.
Canada - Ontario, British Columbia, and Alberta.
Ireland
Philippines - Madaluyong City, Pasig, and Laguna
France - Essonne, Bouche-du-rhone
Victoria, Australia
Spain - Barcelona and Granada
Seoul, Korea
New Zealand - Wellington and Auckland
Noord-Holland, Netherlands
Fukuoka, Japan
Grad Zagreb, Croatia
Puerto Rico
Henan, China
Al Asimah, Kuwait
Sao Paulo, Brazil
Vastra Gotaland, Sweden
You made me believe in a better tomorrow, I will always be grateful.
